A hollow feeling, a body without healing,
a need for a tender kiss.
Then add the knowledge of being without;
for the wanting to be haunting,
to the point that I shout out:
Shout for her attention!
A moment in time, screw having to rhyme,
I just want her to talk to me, to remind me of her love
To tell me she is doing alright,
That life is good. How my heart jumps when the IM sound sounds but it is just files being transferred, Maybe I am not always calling first but I always want to speak to you, or hear you; I hardly ever say I don’t want to talk to you, and even when I do, it is not your fault at all, I still love you, I just am absent of my normal self I don’t even know if that makes sense, it doesn’t to me, but it is true, sometimes I want to be alone so much, that even the darkness seems too warm a companion, and I want to escape it…probably the time I need you the most. That warms me a little. Perhaps right now I need to suffer a little without you so I can have you at the time I need you the most. Better, you don’t need me right now…you or doing something spectacular, and I must keep my loneliness in check so I can have some left over when you need me. Dark times are coming or have come for you, and by that I mean when I went through the year you are going through it was very Dark for me, and the dark wasn’t my friend…Hopefully I can help you through this year in the ways that no one could help me through my respective Junior year.
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