???poem??? (not really)

Start with a feeling of something amiss.
A hollow feeling, a body without healing,
a need for a tender kiss.

Then add the knowledge of being without;
for the wanting to be haunting,
to the point that I shout out:

Shout for her attention!
A moment in time, screw having to rhyme,
I just want her to talk to me, to remind me of her love

To tell me she is doing alright,
That life is good. How my heart jumps when the IM sound sounds but it is just files being transferred, Maybe I am not always calling first but I always want to speak to you, or hear you; I hardly ever say I don’t want to talk to you, and even when I do, it is not your fault at all, I still love you, I just am absent of my normal self I don’t even know if that makes sense, it doesn’t to me, but it is true, sometimes I want to be alone so much, that even the darkness seems too warm a companion, and I want to escape it…probably the time I need you the most. That warms me a little. Perhaps right now I need to suffer a little without you so I can have you at the time I need you the most. Better, you don’t need me right now…you or doing something spectacular, and I must keep my loneliness in check so I can have some left over when you need me. Dark times are coming or have come for you, and by that I mean when I went through the year you are going through it was very Dark for me, and the dark wasn’t my friend…Hopefully I can help you through this year in the ways that no one could help me through my respective Junior year.

Stuck in my mind

Warning dont read if you want a comprehensive or even compehendible blog this is a rant and so it shall be, no need for perfection or a backspace, spaces punctuation whatever.
What is it a girl wants! DONT ANSWER THAT!
THEY LISTEN TO MUSIC BY ARTISTS RAVING ABOUT LOOKING AT A GIRL (SAY IN FURS EVERYBODY LOOKING AT HER) TALKING ABOUT HER BODY, TALKING IN ALL SORTS OF UNPLEASANT WAYS. GIRLS ARE LISTSNING TO TRASH, WITH EVERY SO CALLED 'YEAR'S BEST MUSIC' INTRODUCING PERHAPS ONE NEW SOUND, A NEW SCRATCH IN AN ELEMENTARY BEAT THAT IS THEN USED AND REUSED AND RECYCLED IN ALMOST EVERY 'NEW' REMIX FOR THE NEXT COUPLE OF YEARS, WITH THE SAME SUBJECTS RESURFACING EVERY COUPLE SONGS, AND SO CALLED UPBEAT SONGS TALKING ABOUT VIOLENCE OR GOING TO THE DANCE FLOOR LISTENING TO THE SONG THAT IS PLAYING, NAMELY, "this song"!!!!!!!!!! tHEN THE GIRLS WANT TO LISTEN TO THE CRAP, GET CLOSE TO STRANGERS, OR EVEN PEOPLE THEY KNOW, EITHER WAY THEY GET ALL INTO EACH OTHER AND OTHER PEOPLE AND JUST A COUPLE MINUTESS BEFORE THEY WERE ALL SENSITIVE ABOUT BEING TOUCHED AND WHATNOT AND PEOPLE WANT TO LEARN TO DANCE BUT SECRETLY (not any more) AND HONESTLY I WOULD BE EMBARRASED TO KNOW HOW TO DANCE IN THIS DAY AND AGE WITH THE (changed to stuff) WE LISTEN TO!!!!!!!!! YOU SAY: WELL THEN DON'T LISTEN TO IT, JUST IGNORE IT LIVE YOUR OWN LIFE AND GO BACK TO THE SOFT BORING TUNES YOU LISTEN TO! WELL, I WOULD BE PERFECTLY HAPPY WITH GOING BACK TO MUSIC THAT HAS WITHSTOOD THE TEST OF TIME AND HAS BEEN LISTENED TO AFTER DECADES, EXCEPT IN MY PRESENT SITUATION, i ENCOUNTER THIS TERRIBLE MUSIC QUITE REGULARLY AND IT HAS BECOME "UNCOOL" TO NOT LISTEN TO IT, OR WHATEVER, AND I HAVE A GIRLFRIEND WHO LIKES TO DANCE TO THIS (changed to stuff). SHE ACCEPTS THAT I DONT LIKE THE MUSIC BUT I CANT EXPECT TO LOVE HER AND NOT ACCEPT HER TASTES TO SOME EXTENT, I CANT CHANGE HER, I WOULDN'T WANT TO BUT WHY MUST SHE LISTEN TO THAT (changed to stuff)!!!!!!!!!!!! WE USED TO HAVE TALENTED ARTISTS IN THE MUSIC WORLD, BUT NOW THE MAJORITY OF THE POOPULAR MAINSTREAM MUSIC is written by 'artisans' not artists, and for the music industry, not for the music world. Luckily, after this, Flo-Rida is out of my head, and I can relax. Peace!

I don't know. Don't ask. Thank you four.