Undivided Self Interest

Take away thoughts of anyone or anything other than myself. Note that who I am reflects some of these relations to things outside of me, but think only in terms of me. Now, what would I look to be later on? I would like to be happy without being content. There will still be a future self for my future self, with room to improve. I would like to make less of a mess of relations with people as I go through my life, not that I am doing dismally now but it is an area that could use improvement. And I would like to be challenged in my abilities, mentally, without losing all my hair over it. Where am I now? Actually, what do I want now, because that is more useful. I want a partner that keeps things interesting and is attractive to me. I want to prepare myself for future success. I have half-assed desires like running a triathlon, writing a book, writing campaigns, writing music, playing instruments... What did I want then? Life.

Feb

My day started off pretty sucky when the dog woke me up and broke the candle casing. But listening to Kesha's Die Young while watching the fog lift off the pond and the waterfowl clustered in coveys split by species of geese, coots, pipers, and duck. Going to insist on having a good day today!

Illium

My new sword was destroyed today. I will get a new one in about a week. I am tired, crushed, and a little wanting. Not lust, but to be wanted. Or used. Or cared for. Or marginally thought about when there is not a social pretext to think about me. Except for my family, I feel I am lacking in this regard. Good night!

Election Day

Yes, I don't get to vote today.

I will have a good day despite that.

Life is good right now.

I am busy, and there is a bit of debt hanging over me right now. Not financial necessarily, just things I owe friends.  Also, a little bit of stress. I am living, and I am alive. :)

You belong in Wildflowers

You belong in a boat out a sea. You belong in my arms, you belong somewhere you feel free.

Thank you Tom.

I am intelligent, modest, and generally open minded. My wants are few, and I have a wonderful collection of friends and family. I also am free to do what I want with my life, which is quite overwhelming.

I am usually slightly unhappy or neutral in my emotion, despite everything I do generally making me in a position where I could be happy.

I enjoy my life and being comfortable.

I am content.

Elhum ever after

Today, I walked into the room. They were there, and it went mostly with normalcy. What havoc have I wrought in the name of personal fulfillment?

The Nostalgic Campaign

Considering writing a campaign. It will be a drain on time and thinking. If it is successful, then I will feel good. I suppose there are ways to spend my time that have a less certain outcome. Indeed it was successful. They got through the cave only. Now, of course, I have fresh concerns. Yum, get 'em fresh! :(