Undivided Self Interest

Take away thoughts of anyone or anything other than myself. Note that who I am reflects some of these relations to things outside of me, but think only in terms of me. Now, what would I look to be later on? I would like to be happy without being content. There will still be a future self for my future self, with room to improve. I would like to make less of a mess of relations with people as I go through my life, not that I am doing dismally now but it is an area that could use improvement. And I would like to be challenged in my abilities, mentally, without losing all my hair over it. Where am I now? Actually, what do I want now, because that is more useful. I want a partner that keeps things interesting and is attractive to me. I want to prepare myself for future success. I have half-assed desires like running a triathlon, writing a book, writing campaigns, writing music, playing instruments... What did I want then? Life.